My random thoughts

Random...

But I watched L.A Hair. For those of you know don't watch that show, it comes on WE TV and it's about Kim Kimble and her salon. Short story: Shes working with Jonathan Antin on an infomercial. Apparently, he's known for shooting successful infomercials and was extremely rude. Not only was he rude to her but he was extremely critical and in a non constructive way. I can tell he meant business and it seemed as if he wanted instant gratification. He spatted, "I'm a brand!" And Kim Kimble had to remind him that she is also a brand, and human at that!

Anyway I know you're all like how does this relate to you Chloé. Well, it relates to me because I want to build my own brand as well. There are a ton of things I want to do. If I tried to pick just one thing it would be really hard. I watched how Kim handled herself on her show. She showed her concern with how Jonathan treated her while also remaining tactful and it made me think of my own anger.

Let's just say growing up and still I face a terrible anger issue. It doesn't always happen, but I blow up when I'm angry about specific things. Like out of control blow up. Like the hulk has nothing on me when I'm angry kind of blow up. I have been working hard on my anger issue. I don't believe anyone should behave the way I do when I get to that level of anger. Watching Kim's situation made me think of myself and how I'd react if I was running my own business.

I'm sure that when you are successful enough to have your own business or brand I should say, and you are constantly mixing with different people to build your own brand (Hollywood lol), you will deal with a ton of rude people. People who will treat you just like Jonathan treated Kim. It's probably normal. Who am I to say? But I do know that if you're going to be successful in any way, you cannot bite any hands that feed you! And in many cases you cannot bite the hand of someone that has connections with others hands with more resources and money. I hate to discuss a rap beef on my blog but hey, look how thousands of people returned meek mill's cd because they are drake fans! Not every battle is worth fighting. Especially battles that aren't really even there lol.

But let's bring it back to me. I would have cussed him out and told him he could kiss my ass and probably walked off the set! They both put money into that project. I then thought I probably would have made a bad name for myself if I was trying to expand my business. That's just the truth in all of it. But something as simple as watching a reality show can show you what's holding you back in life!

This is one of the very main reasons I meditate and also analyze things the way I do. That's why it's important to me to have ME time.. The same way you get to know someone else better by spending time with them, you will get to know yourself. However, spending time alone doesn't guarantee you will learn any new things if you aren't actually spending the time to get to know yourself. I'm also learning more about mindfulness as I practice meditation which has a lot to do with how we react to life period. But I'll save that for another time!

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned"

-Buddha